Some will call this exhibitionism, I would say it is polite just, I think I will never completely forgive DIGITAL for having disappeared like this without giving explanation…I was especially affected by that, when I remember all the private discussion we had out of TGM.. So I will explain why there are now, almost no chance to see me come back on TGM..I am telling it now : I planned to try still for 3-4 weeks just before the STUNFEST to play with people and enjoy on the place, but then I will be finishing my time in Hungary and prepare my departure for Africa (Senegal) for the end of summer. I know most of you will believe it is a comedy..I screamed for it to many times so it doesn´t work anymore I guess.. TGM never provided me any deep and consistent feeling resulting into real peace and happiness in my life... If I try to list what TGM brought for me and other on these 8 years, I see very few superficial things at the end : It made happy just a few minutes around 300 people in the world who could say in watching my videos : "aww ...Amnesia does this move so good..Aww he is fast.." That is all, then these 300 people never think about me in the normal time. If they are feeling bad, my videos won't provide them any positive. Just some quick dopamin for the minutes they watch me. Yes neurology, especially the mechanisms of happiness, pleasure and addiction, is a private passion for me…So I can determine if TGM brought me consistent happiness (serotonin) of just short spike of superficial pleasure (dopamin) during these 8 years. For me it the same, I feel some short pleasure of satisfaction when I made a record, then I feel proud in watching my videos, I see my improvements...And, that is all But this game kept me busy in average 1,5 hours per day. and prevented me to have a real social life during this time. When my life collapsed in the beginning of January for the combinaison of 3 events : (a girl who rejected me (trigger event) + deep loneliness feeling + feeling to have played a wrong life) TGM did not help me. No one from the community could, because of the distance, and the fact that we were socially too distant, the only thing which saved me was a close physical presence of a little number of key persons. And only that. After I felt better, I decided to dramatically open myself, stop radicaly drugs to repair quickly and properly, and I was not the same anymore. A funny thing I just did 2 days ago, this famous autist test of 50 questions which circulates on the net, I did it 3 times on 2 years, the 2 first long time ago was 32 then 37 (over 30 is autist), and 2 days ago I attempted the most honestly possible again and got 16. The desire to play again did not come back, I tried 2 times, but no pleasure...It was like going backward..A weird and unpleasant feeling. Maybe a feeling that c_t experienced… Today I feel happy to see myself getting back this free additional time and neurones to develop in my new passion, the human (sociology, anthropology, psychology...), I am a social person, and I thought for 10 years I was a pure solitary who could just stay alone in his flat using drug and playing Tetris. I sweared to myself that never again a girl would put me that down with such an incredible pain in my body..I decided that I would invest the same crazy motivation that I had into Tetris, but to understand the human psychology...I will never reject in my heart this experience, attempting to become the best dude of Tetris in assaulting the craziest players of the world, doing these meeting, developing my English and visiting places, will stay a part of my life I will consider precious forever. Who knows, maybe I will come back, but I think you understood that it is not for soon..